Let's see, I'm not quite sure how to start my entry today. I went with a friend to the mall last night after work. Even if we didn't really buy anything, just being out with someone and laughing about the stupidest things cheered me up a lot. A part of me has a gut feeling that she likes me more than as a friend but I'm not sure. In a way, I always imagined that's what having a girlfriend would be like, just walking around the mall and me saying if I like outfits or not. I guess time will tell.
As expected, I've been torn all week as to when I should attempt to talk to that person who hurt me. It's been about a week since I've said a word to her and I miss talking. But at the same time I'm trying to protect myself as well. Some days I'm so positive that I could do it tomorrow, and other times I'm not so sure. I'm taking this as a sign that I'm not quite ready to talk to her again. I'm not going to be like her, just drifting through life doing what 'I feel like.' I'm driven by what I need to do and by loyalty, so I think I'm going to wait until next week. I probably need a bit more time. Friendship shouldn't be this hard should it?
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