Monday....

Monday Monday Monday....why did you have to come so early? hahaha.  I can barely keep my eyes open at work.  Somehow I gotta make it through without falling asleep at my desk.

I actually feel decently these past few days.  My friend and I made up, although it'll still take work to patch everything up.  This whole ordeal has made me reconsider what friends really are. How can you profess to care about someone and then ditch them?  Why is it so many of my friends neglect me even though they know of my condition and that it requires extra attention?  It's been frustrating and I find it hard to trust anyone anymore.

Let's see...something positive to focus on today.  Jennifer had a bad week and needs me around so we planned for a dinner and dvd/blu-ray movie night.  It's nice to feel wanted.  This goes right along with what my pastor was telling me yesterday about serving others and how it can be a distraction from our own issues.  I genuinely believe that I am one of those people who needs to be needed.  And when I'm not, I feel like I don't have any use.  It's dangerous at causes me pain at times, but I feel happiest when I'm helping others.  Maybe that's why God put me on this earth.  Who knows?