Started off my day with a little dance to 'Hooked on a Feeling' by Blue Swede.  Nothing's going to keep me down today.  No matter what other people keep telling me, thing's are not my fault and I'm stronger than they give me credit for.

Yesterday a colleague was telling me that cowards commit suicide, and that I was not a coward.  That definitely gave me the strength to get through the day.

Got a call from my pastor last night.  Apparently whenever the word 'suicide' is brought up, he is bound by rules to report it to the church leadership.  I definitely felt like I was being judged.  In the back of my mind, I've always known that Asian Christians have such a difficult time understanding clinical depression and last night just kinda proved it to me.  I fear I may be asked to leave the church because they don't want to be liable for me.  But at the same time, I don't think it's a bad thing.  If I have to leave, perhaps it will generate enough awareness about clinical depression that the Asian mindset towards it will finally change.  If that's the case, it's totally worth it.  I wonder though....would any of my friends leave the church willingly to show their support for me?